Project Vanity- Day F*cking 1

Ok, I got some of the term from Elizabeth Gilbert's Eat Pray Love.

My self-esteem has taken a dive lately. So I need a little pushing in order to be at the right track, no slash that, its supposed to be on the right mood. Here's what I intend to do, call them My Beauty Goals:

1. Lose weight (its always on the top of my

freakin list)

Banana in the morning

Cup of rice for lunch

1/2 cup of rice for dinner

apple/banana for snack

2. Fix my hair - I'l probably have it next week, before my daughter's recognition day.

I want Cameron's style of hair, but in different color. Geez, I've been playing with my hairstyle lately.

3.Massage - Ok, this is something that I never fail to do. Its a must for me to get this a couple of times each month. By Saturday, I'll have one again.

4. Facial treatments- I've been too lazy lately to apply creams on my face. :(

Just Be Your Very Best

We were asked to memorize this poem back during our elementary years at St. Agnes Academy. Somehow, its meaning live through me...

Be The Best Of Whatever You Are

If you can't be a pine on the top of a hill

Be a scrub in the valley, but be the best little scrub on the side of the hill

Be a bush if you can't be a tree,

If you can't be a bush be a bit of the grass

And some highway happier make.

If you can't be a muskie, then just be a bass,

But the liveliest bass in the lake.

We can't all be captains, we've got to be crew,

There's something for all of us here.

There's big work to do and there's lesser work, too,

And the thing we must do is the near

If you can't be a highway, then just be a trail.

If you can't be the sun, be a star.

It isn't by size that you win or you fail.

Be the best of whatever you are.

Douglas Maloch

I am excited about something but I cannot spill the beans yet....

8 freaking school requirements!

office works

pay philhealth's contribution

kid's pre-registration

attending to Trife's medicines

going with Tifa's choir practices

all of these for 2 days. ok, can I faint now?

The Past Can Still Haunt You

The past, no matter how we try to bury the hatchet can still show itself on our present. There are memories you could not forget. Lesson you learned the hard way that keep on popping underneath your nose. And hurtful relationships that haunt you even during these days when you thought you have moved on.

Why am I saying this? Because no matter how hard I try to convince myself that "we're finally separated", I realized that I could not honestly detach myself from him. I hate myself now for writing this blog but realizations should be faced.

I realized that I will never have the chance to talk to him and sort out the problems. Our relationship never ended the right way. One moment its eternal bliss...and POP! It is gone. I wish we could have said our goodbyes because things will be easier that way.

Don't get me wrong, I am no longer looking forward to reconciliation. But the feeling that something never ended but disappeared could haunt me badly. It is like looking for your missing ring without knowing if its completely lost or just somewhere hidden inside the house. You continuously search for it and even waited hard enough before it shows up. But will it ever show up? Can you move on when you have an unfinished business from your past?

This could have been a good day for me if I wasn't too emotional. I was talking with my mentor awhile ago when tears finally poured on my face. To worsen the situation, we are in the middle of a damn crowd! I didn't know what happened or why I even started crying. But one thing is for sure, I have to fight hard not to be tempted with my past again.

Yes, I'll catch a grenade for you.

What I Learned About Japan's Tragic

Friday last week, I am with my family to buy a replacement for a broken CPU, when I heard the news that we were asked to secure ourselves for the supposed tsunami that could happen here as an aftereffect of Japan's tragic incident. So we headed back home not knowing if its the best thing to do. For your information, we are living about 2km away from the shore.

A nervous-freak as I am, I try to convince my mother to evacuate. To no avail, she just assured me that we're fine here based on the advisory she would patiently listen to from her trusted phone's radio feature. So what I did was to grab a palm leaf from last year's Palm Sunday, light a candle from the Candelaria celebration last February, and prayed. I then packed some of my kids stuffs including their milk and nappies and waited for the clock to turn 7pm.

Anyway, we're ok.

But the moment I turned on the tube, pictures of Japan's tragedy hit me. Lives lost here and there. Families looking for their members. The massive destruction. Wrecked homes. Muddy streets.

And now,

There's the threat of radiation.



But from these events, I learned the following:

1. That in times of darkness, you will always find a hand who will hold you securely. God never abandons anyone. He will always send His angels to watch over us.


2. That while people in Japan fought for their lives, Libyans are killing theirs.



3. In the end, you will still go back to the place you call "home".


4. That Japanese are disciplined.



5. Miracles do happen.

on diet

Im on diet. I know I've been in this road too many times before and I always find myself failing.

I'm doing the morning banana diet although I also eat just banana and milk in the evening.