Recent Purchases

This Father's Day of 2011, I decided to grab some good stuffs for me.

First, I had a Samsung netbook. My Lenovo laptop is still dependable like before but I felt the need to buy a smaller version so I can do my work wherever I go. And boy, this Samsung, despite its affordable cost never fails me! I personally love its red and white combination. I am now calling her "Fierce".

Also, I bought an orange XOXO bag. Most of my bags are large so this purchase was special.

Happy Father's Day To Moms!

Since its Father's Day and I could not stress more of how pleased I am to have a loving father at my side, let me take this opportunity to blog about women who bravely accepted the title of being a "mom" and a "dad" altogether. I am one of them, and I know a lot of them.

I am not comfortable talking about my marriage, not because it hurts but because the lack of such "feeling" somehow left me confused. Don't get me wrong, I loved my husband. But later I realized that love alone cannot make the world go round. Thanks for my father who let me realized that girls are supposed to be priced and loved.

So fast forward...

One of the questions I have to deal with when I woke up one day and realized that our marriage is truly over is, how I am going to explain this to my kids? How could I assure them that they are loved even after they were left? Worse, how could I fathom the idea of raising kids alone and still think that everything's going to be alright? Questions frighten me.

Raising kids alone is no joke. Any single mom would agree how difficult it is to ensure that your kid's needs are met while keeping enough time for yourself to ensure that you do not lose your own life along the way. I never perfected the challenge. Somewhere along the way, I always find myself suffering from sickness because of too much working. It is never easy but its worth it.

I was just lucky that my kids were able to adjust with me. Somehow, they were able to accept that this is their family, even though it composes of just a mom, a brother and a sister. They take care of me as much as I take care of them. Like today, I have this bad flu. I've been suffering from this since Thursday night and boy its really bad! To my surprise, my kids volunteered to be my nurse. They saw a watch which happen to play a song when you press on it, and gave it to me. I just press on it and viola, the two will come rushing at my bedside. They would ask about my needs and make sure they gave them (of course, with their yaya's supervision).

Being a father and a mother at the same time is not easy, but the kids make all the work bearable.

F*ckin Perfect

I've always been a Pink fan, always.

Dear Diary

Nothing much to say. I had my hair treated today and I have a new blog. :)

Proud

It was my boy's first day at school. Trife have always been the pampered and cared type of kid. So until this morning, I was really hoping that he won't get uneasy at the new environment. I was even scared when he started to tell me the stuffs he's going to do after he goes home from school. But when the class started, boy he made me really proud! He got his first 3 stars. He participated well and even told his teacher that he's going to bring DVDs tomorrow for the class to watch.

Now, Tifa did the same. When she got home, she told me that she was given a job at school. So I said, what job? Then she started telling me that the job starts with letter M then U follows. Still puzzled, I asked what kind of job is that then she said that she has to look good and behave well. Goodness, she's the muse!

RH BILL, What's Your Take?

I AM AGAINST RH BILL. Before you curse me and say I’m one of the old-fashioned moralists, you can spare yourself the trouble because I would love to be called that way. You see, I am not the typical Ms. Goody Two Shoes. In fact, I have fair share of troubles. I am one of the many “teen moms”—the one who you laugh at dinner time for being too careless with her love life. I am one of them. In fact, I married young, with the wrong guy, because now we’re separated. I have enough reasons to go to the street and say “keep your rosaries out of my ovaries”.

So now comes the bill that could have saved me from being a stupid young mom, but why am I not happy about it? Let me tell you why.

Abortion entered my mind the moment I realized I am pregnant. But faith saved me from doing so. I always believe that everything in this world is planned by HIM. It’s God’s grace to allow us to experience things we could have been better without. So believing that God will never leave me empty, I went through the pregnancy while I kept my head down as people made a feast out of my life. Boy, it was never a cloud nine experience. I could almost recall how many “disgusting” smiles I had with people, worst, from some of my relatives. If parents could create a model of a life that their children should never patronize, it would be mine. If there is a boarder that separates the good and the bad, I am on the latter.

My life had been a constant episode of trying-to-prove-I-am-worthy. It was hard to follow the life of a typical teenager after you’ve been tagged with immorality. But now, all I can do is smile when thinking the days I questioned God why I had to go through hell. I realized that my life could have never been this good if I never have to cross that path. Possibly, I am still one of the teenagers who party all night, the one who can drop dead anytime because no one will ever care. The kids and the experience gave me perspective in life.

So back to the RH bill, I believe that God gave us purposes in this life. The approval of this bill will let us meddle with His will. How many times a woman did tried contraceptive pills because she thinks it is not still the best time to conceive? How can one recognize that it is exactly the perfect time? When did human ever have the ability to see what the future holds? No matter how steady your life would be, no matter how you enjoy a high-paying job, you could never decide when the best time to get pregnant is. No one ever comes ready for it. It’s an experience that needs learning. It is something that comes to anyone, almost unexpectedly. It is a blessing indeed.

RH Bill will never make us enjoy sex. Since when did we appreciate what’s normal? You wake up each day without going through the ecstatic moment of “aha! The sun is shining”. The sun will continue to shine each day; there is nothing amazing about it. So if we can have sex with anyone without getting pregnant, it will become a norm. It will become a boringly tedious norm. Its meaning will be lost. So for some who thinks that we could enjoy sex better if there’s the RH bill? Go on and make me laugh more. The RH bill will make us no better than the nomads who indulge into something without thinking about the consequence.

RH Bill is never pro-poor. It’s a way for officials to cover the dents they made in the government. It’s a system who let a pot calls the kettle black. If we really want to become progressive, why not change our morals? Are we that powerful to stop the future because we can handle the present on our own hands? Don’t we need the children of tomorrow to help us with our present? If children and poor had always been the priority of government then why are they not welcome in our society now?

RH Bill is an issue of morality and this is an issue that involves the women specially. If RH bill will be approved we will lost our decency. We could anticipate a future were families are broken, were whores cohabit with your husband because sex will then be free. We could look forward to a place where baby boomers are plenty and babies who brighten our day are nothing but rare species. Will we be progressive by that time? Maybe yes. But will we be happy?

I am a proud mom, I am Pro-Life.

Some simply dont give a damn