Mayo Uno

Without labor nothing prospers. ~Sophocles

My Heart

As you see the heart image on top, you might think that I'll be blogging about relationships. Well, I am not.

Last week, April 20 to be exact, I was admitted to the hospital because of PVC. At first, I was clueless because the name sounds more of a pipe for me. But in medicine it means Premature Ventricular Contraction.

I went to my Pulmonary Specialist because of chest pain. Because I am a constant sufferer of asthma, I thought its just a usual asthma attack. The doctor wants me to be admitted to the hospital because of Bronchial Asthma but then again, he asked me to undergo an ECG to see the status of my heart.

Then,

I found myself crying with my baby boy. I brought him along because we are going to go to his doctor afterwards, he's suffering from constant sneezing and I thought he might have some allergies too.

I dont want to be admitted to the Intensive Cure Unit (the doctor suggested this) because the thought of it makes me think I am going to die. I was assisted for 2D Echo. For about an hour, I endured the discomfort of lying on that bed as they look for problems in my heart. I just assured myself of this "Think Happy Thoughts, God Is In Charge". I stayed in the hospital for 4 days. The doctor allowed me to stay outside the ICU after the 2D echo showed that it will be alright. Although at my room, I got a Cardiac Monitor. It was a painful experience, I got pinned 7 times for blood testing, allergy tests, and so forth.

If there is something I learned from this experience, that would be to take care of my body and to always trust God. And of course, to "think happy thoughts."

:)

This Lent

"Look at His adorable face.
Look at His glazed and sunken eyes.
Look at His wounds.
Look Jesus in the Face.
There, you will see how He loves us."

~ St. Therese of Lisieux

On Friendship

Yesterday, we rummage through her things to find something worthy for keeping. Last night, we ate our heart out which probably is our last meal together. Now, I’ve watched as her family went onboard to a place million miles away from me.

I never knew how it hurts to say goodbye to a friend, but your hug made it bearable.

It seems only yesterday when we planned how we wish our kids to grow up. We wished them to become someone like what we have. But then suddenly, we have to say goodbye to those wishes and longings. How I wish I could still see your kids grow up. I wish we could have our daily chats still. I hate talking about pains but I cannot help it this time because I dearly and selfishly miss you a lot.

I’m going to miss how I start my week and end it with our long conversations. I am amazed how we managed to sit for a couple of hours and more just talking about the same thing each and every day. We manage to deal with each other’s attitudes and even went far from not hating one another through the years. Honestly, I could not recall a single day when we hated each other. I am going to miss our FB secrets. The way we share notes in order to keep the best for our kids. I love how unselfish you have become to me. I love how we constantly talk about beauty stuffs and when we get bore, we talk about our kids, our own marriages, and our friendship.

I hate that you told me just yesterday about your plan of leaving. I thought you are going to tell me months before the date. But then again, I understand how you feel. I understand how you hate to see us cry. I understand how this parting hurts you too.

I don’t know if ever we will see each other again but this tears, this pain, this everything…will surely lead our paths to cross again. I love you Tess and I love your family. Take care because I’m going to hate you if you don’t…

Your friend,

Twinks

a reminder

There will always be mountains to climb and seas to cross. There will always be dreams to dream and stars to reach. You can't always look back, nor can you always look ahead. You will miss so much along the way if you do that. It's not how fast you travel, it's not who gets there first. It's the memories you will make, it's the love you will forever keep with you. Live the life you have right in that moment where you are. ;-)

self-love

Help me to realize that it is ok to think about myself, to fight for myself, and to hate others for myself.

Self-denial is as important as self-love. Like with any other, proper balance is important. We need to love others and to love ourself completely. We should know where to draw the line because a step nearer to self-love is a danger to self-denial, and vice versa. Why do we need to deny ourself? In order to love others.

But what if you are stuck into believing that its ok for others to hold you down because after all, you love them. What if in order to stop chaos, you agree to disagree. You keep your mouth shut and even go to the point of never standing up for yourself. How long can you take it?

My Kindergarten girl...

Congratulations from mommy and lil boy!